I was just looking at the photos that are here on Sakuramina.com and it just hit me: I have pictures that are coming up on five years now.
Five years? Goddess, I look so much better now than I did then!
Oh, there's a pound or two extra (but no more), but my makeup is far better, and I'm so used to a wig now I feel odd without it. I wear women's clothing almost
all the time anymore, and that includes a bra. I have to--I have boobs of my own now. J
I have traveled far on my journey towards womanhood. It hasn't always been easy, but this isn't about that, really. Well, okay. In a sense it is, because it's my
growth into womanhood. In one sense, it's kind of like going through adolescence all over again…but without high school, zits and blind dates.
Really, though, it's all about the pictures, and what I see, and I like what I am seeing: growth. I like the woman that Mina Sakura is: Confident; secure in who she is;
educated and ordained; a world renowned authoress; a good looking…woman. Brains and looks in one package.
Before you get to thinking, “My, isn't she acting like a princess,” relax. (Though I do claim to be the Himemiko, or Imperial Princess, but that's another story.) I'm
not about bragging-I just keep seeing the changes, the growth…and it's like I'm not the same person. Don't believe me? Go check the pics out for yourself; I'll wait.
See what I mean? And with a digital camera that I can edit pictures with, at least I don't look possessed! Another positive: I can take pictures whenever I want
--with no film worries. (The camera cost was a bit steep...but the savings on film more than offsets it.)
That growth is what those pictures are all about. I said that in 2000, and I meant it then, and mean it moreso now. It'll be interesting to see what pictures I'll have up
in the next few years, and the growth that those will represent.
I am so at peace now with being a woman. I love it, and wouldn't want to give it up now. The 2nd quarter of 2005 notwithstanding, I am relaxed more in my female life
then ever before. That also shows in my pics; three years ago I would NEVER have a shot of me in nothing more than a bra and panties. (That's the line, though.
I know kids are on my website.) I mean…in the 2002 pics I have a nightie on…with a robe over it. In the 2004 pics, however, I'm in a nightie and and nothing else!
Maybe it's the hormones, maybe it's just where I am, maybe…maybe it's just the rest of my brain finally latching on to the fact that my womanhood isn't something
in my future.
It's here and now. And I'm glad I have the pictures to prove it.
