One of the things that I get to look back on is how far I’ve come in the last ten years. I’ve written on this topic before; it’s not news to me. Things I could only have wild
dreams of back then are so common now I don’t give them a second thought.
But recently I responded to a post on TrannyWeb discussing the baby steps we have to take. It got me to thinking about taking those baby steps. You don’t just move into
the realm that I (and other TS’s) live in all at once. There comes a point where you have to make some decisions that are hard and fast. Those little changes are the ones
that determine, in part, how serious you really are about this.
For example, this morning I woke up and just didn’t want to deal with things like putting a pad in my panties, putting a bra on, and applying even basic makeup. (Now in all
fairness, I’ve not been well the last few days and am somewhat sleep deprived.) But, because I am the woman I am, I did those things, like any genetic girl would do. Why?
Because these choices are based on my decision to life as much as a woman as possible. That means a daily pad in my panties, putting my boobs in a bra, and applying
some light makeup before going to work downtown. (It’s Friday as I write this, and thus, casual.) I’m in a ladies polo shirt, woman’s slacks, and looking more like the woman
I purport to be (or at least somewhat androgynous). All my stuff is in my purse, including my clutch, and I am good to go at any time.
Small changes. Little steps. It doesn’t, it shouldn't, it can't happen overnight. Not without some serious issues. That's why small changes are better, though it takes longer
to get where you want to go. (That is one of the reasons, my dears, that I say this is a journey.)
Some examples for you to contemplate: Shaving—I started with my armpits. Then my hands, my chest, my legs, and now the only body hair I have left other than the mop
on my head is on my forearms. This all took place over a period of several years. I didn’t just shave it all off at once.
Makeup—started very light, and then got a bit heavier. Now I don’t feel dressed without at least some mascara, some perfume, and a little lipstick. (Except for the last few
days...I burned my bottom lip with some scalding hot cheese.)
Clothing choices were made likewise; I changed out my wardrobe over a number of years and now is almost totally feminine. (I do keep some man stuff, but not much.)
Jewelry changes were a bit easier; I have quite a slide collection, and they are all very pretty and nobody blinks at seeing me in them. Rings and bracelets are also par
for the course.
Hormones...it took me five years to decide if hormones were right for me, and a year to ramp them up to a decent dosage. Again I remind you all that HORMONES ARE A
FOREVER CHANGE! Once those changes start happening, it's permanent...and in some cases, very obvious.
Please, please go back and read this again. It's all about making the little changes over time. By making small changes, I don’t weird people out. (Well, okay. Not all at
once, at least.) Because we need to be real about one thing: We, by the very nature of what we are trying to achieve, are a bit weird to the average person on the street.
That's okay—if we could just flip a switch and make the change all at once, most of us would, I suspect.
