Somebody sent me an e-mail, asking me if I am serious about living as a woman when I don’t want “The Operation.”
Yes, I am quite serious. To give you an idea just how serious I am, behold the following:
I went to a consultation today for laser hair removal. It hasn’t gotten any cheaper; to just do my chest was $2,600. My back was a like amount, and other parts of me would
run in a similar vein. In short, it’ll run about $10,000 to laser my body hair, and the process will take several years. If I had the money, I’d get started. Since I don’t, that will
have to continue to be “on hold” for the time being. Which means I have to keep using an epilator, which is mostly effective. Painful and time consuming, but effective.
I recently received another order of hormones last week, roughly 3 months worth. I take a combination of Estrogel and Estrofem, to the tune of roughly 6mg/day. I pay $600
a year for these, plus an annual doctor visit. We won’t even discuss things like women’s vitamins.
I just bought four used tops. (Winter is coming, and some of my winter tops have seen their last winter.) Even used, the total came to $24. (New would have run me close to
$85 or more; one top was a Liz Claiborne and when it was new it was $45 all by itself.) I can see at least another $50 in stuff I bought earlier this year. A new pair of sneaks
(Reebok Princess model) just set me back $35. I am in need of a few blouses, a couple of skirts, another pair of dress slacks--office wear, if you will--and a new strapless
bra. Bras and panties are bought new. I do have my standards. And, I have had bra fittings as well, so mine fit better than some genetic girls I know. All told, I have spent
about $200 in clothes this year. I was considering buying some man-stuff prior to a prepaid family reunion. Glad I didn’t...no sense in spending money I don’t really have
on stuff I won’t wear.
Makeup: I wear it. Daily. I haven’t bought any Shiseido in a year; I’ve been wearing Cover Girl because I can’t quite afford $600 a year for Shiseido. Mascara, some new
application sponges, liquid foundation, and a new blush compact ran me $16 and some change. Add to that 3 different eye-shadows, foundation compact (part of why I
want laser!), 2 nail polishes and a few lip glosses, and you can run that tab to $41. Now, multiply that by 4. That’s $164 annually, for you non-math major types.
This does not cover things like the daily pads in my panties, the blades for my Venus so I can shave my armpits (there are some areas I just can’t epilate), the perfume I
wear from time to time, wig maintenance, women’s glasses so I can see to type things all day, pantyhose, new magnetic earrings (nothing’s pierced, remember?), etc.
So, just in the stuff I’ve listed, you can see pretty close to $1,000 annually. That’s when things are tight, kids. It’s far more, if I’m doing better financially. Like $2500 a year,
for good makeup, new clothes (and darlings, I have expensive tastes in both), jewelry, hormones, and the like.
Serious about living as a woman is buying all this stuff when I could be doing something else with the money. Serious is doing what I am doing, because if I don’t I become
increasingly uncomfortable, and physically ill. Serious is beginning to look more and more like full time is coming sooner than I ever dreamed.
All this to say that, even in tough times, I’m living a very feminine life, as the woman I have become should be.
