I like wearing makeup, as big as a pain as it can be, and as much time as it takes to apply. I love the way I look when I am all made up. Mascara, eyeshadow, and a little
lipstick...I don't feel dressed without at least that much makeup on anymore.
I like doing my nails. I love what a manicure and pedicure does for my spirits. I like choosing a nailcolor and taking an hour or so to make them look pretty.
I love to do my hair up. Yes, I wear a wig, but that does not mean I don't like to wash, style and play with my hairstyle from time to time. I love to let a hairstylist wash my
hair. I enjoy the feeling of someone's hands in my hair.
I also like not having hair all over. Part of being a girl is shaving my armpits. I dislike using the epilator, but looking like a woman involves smooth breasts and body, legs and
some day, smooth arms. It is worth the time and effort.
I like wearing skirts and blouses. I love wearing a dress. I love the feeling of confidence I have when I have to go out for something during my workday (such work as I have
right now) and I am looking totally feminine, wig in place, girls in, makeup done right, and am either in a nice skirt/blouse combo or dress.
I love jewelry and other accesories. I have good taste in jewelry, and wish I could get some more. I like carrying a purse or shoulderbag, and being able to carry everything I
need to.
I am enjoying my hormones, cost aside. I love what they have done for and to me. (It's a vast improvement, trust me.) The changes they have wrought are pretty permanent
at this point. Now it's a maintenance thing.
I love being able to decorate parts of my home and office to match my feminine tastes. Stuffed animals, Tinkerbell and Hello Kitty, and pretty touches, many of them Oriental,
abound at home and in my office.
I love things like nighties, bras, and panties. That I have to wear the latter two daily, as any genetic girl does, does not matter to me. Yes, I put a daily pad in my panties.
So what? So do many genetic girls.
I get no sexual thrill from all this, but a sense of wholeness, a sense of being who I really am. And that's what it's all about for me.
I love the feeling that this is who I really am. This is the life I was meant to live.
