Q's 21-30

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21. If you're so comfortable with being Jayne, why don't you just come out to the world? Honey, get a grip. I like eating,

having a roof over my head, and a paycheck as well. It isn't all that easy; here in the midwest especially where "not like

us"=bad/wrong/"sinful". There is coming a time where I will have to tell my folks, and sit down with the S.O. But the time

is not right, and so that time is not right now.

22. How do you get your pictures developed? That's simple, I do the same thing you do. I drop them off at Wal-Mart,

then pick them up when they're done. I usually get them done to both prints and CD. Now, if by this you mean, how can I

drop off pics of me en femme, that's easy too. I take them either with the help of a trusted friend, or the timer on the

camera. By having them put on a CD, that usually means the roll has to leave the store. But, it's not like I'm

23. Where do you get ideas for the stuff you write? Where isn't there inspiration? Look around you. There's the daily

news, the web, radio, print stuff. Someone may ask you a question somewhere. Keep a little notepad and a pen with

24. I noticed that you cautioned a "newly awakened" TG to not start dressing. Seems a little like you are against

other TG's, doesn't it? Not really. I am all for anyone who wants to join the sorority. What I do caution against is

throwing your life away if you have never thought through the potential consequences. We do not have the

protections that we should in the job market, for example. Our S.O.'s may not see the new you in the same light.

What I am really saying is this:"Think about what you are starting to undertake, and is it worth potentially losing

25. How did you pick your name? Actually, my name was partially picked for me. I was supposed to be born a

girl and surprised a lot of people, including my doctors, when I wasn't. My first name--Minako--means "Beautiful

(little) child." My middle name--Mary Jane was to be my birth name; MaryJayne is a corrupted contraction of that,

which I then shortened to simply Jayne. My last name--Sakura--is taken from the Japanese for Cherry or Cherry

26. You wrote that you got "read" at work. What was that like? Well…it was a little embarrassing, a little intimidating…

and no great surprise. And actually, it wasn't a total read; but my bra straps do occasionally show under the blouses,

polo shirts and turtlenecks I wear. That and too much time logged into TrannyWeb were the main giveaways. Learn

27. Have you ever wanted to totally purge and go back to being masculine? Not really. I mean, I have thought about

the appropriateness of such, but have no real desire to do so. That is a very scary thought to me, frankly. I am far

happier now living as a woman than I ever was as a man. Not to mention the cost in clothing alone. I would have to

go homme over a period of 6 months to a year, as I no longer own more than a very few pieces of male clothing.

Plus, the one time I did purge, I ended up physically ill.

28. What has been your biggest adjustment to date? Good question. I would have to say the biggest adjustment

so far has been coming to terms with my thought patterns, understanding that I am not a freak, but instead, that I

am a woman. When everyone tells you that men think one way, and women think another, and you are supposedly

male but think just like every girl you know, that is a bit hard to take. Once I wrapped my brain around that concept,

though, everything else pretty much fell into place.

29. Now that you have started hormones, what's next? Another good question. I suppose the answer should be

that I will move into living full time. But the question itself really can't be answered that easily. I still owe quite a bit,

and while I am making progress, I still can't be on my own…yet. In addition, bear in mind that as of the time I write

this, this is only a 90 day trial. I may not continue past that. I will keep updating the Hormone Diaries, so keep

30. Where did you get your Premarin from, and how much was it? I am not going to share that on this website. Ever.

I am under Doctor's care for this and several other things, and you should be too! I have said it before: Hormones

are forever. I will tell you that I went via the Internet as my current medical plan does not allow for men to take female

hormonal replacement/therapy, except under unusual circumstances. (Oddly enough, it is precisely because of the

DSM-IV based diagnosis of Gender Dysphoria that I didn't qualify. Go fig.) Otherwise, I'd be using my local drugstore.

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